Chaos in an Unconventional World

From April 15, 2018. Having babies and a family comes easy for most. Maintaining the sanity and composure once you build that family unit is the difficult part. Letting others in to the once easy life. Makes you check your sanity, rips at your heart strings, and damages your soul. Why do they hate you so much? Why can't the home feel like home? Why when you leave are you comfortable not coming back? Why does it play with your emotions so much to just want to walk away from everything you have worked so hard for, but suddenly don't care about? Sometimes you get to the point where you say fuck it and walk away. I am there.

Time to do me. Fuck all else. Keep my birthed babies close and fuck it all. Do me. Be a doctor. Stay focused. Create. Dream big. Show off. Skills. Teach others. Fuck it all. All the haters can hate. I am still doing me. Single mom in a married household. Bring in that green so I can do me. Pay off my shit quick. So I can do me. Purge the bad. And unholy. Focus. Be a bitch. Be strong. But still a bitch. Keep that mental health in check. Do me. Fuck everything else. Take time for me. Keep those babies close. And the enemies can go fuck themselves.